current mood: frustrated
I only have one question, why is it that no one told me
about Tamoxifen and the possible side affect of mood swings…
Sure I was told by my Oncologist that Tamoxifen may cause hot flashes, weight
gain, headaches and other “fun” stuff but she never mentioned mood swings.
Well lately I have been out of control with Tamoxifen
Rage. You could look at me the wrong way
and I could go off on you. My poor
boyfriend has taken the brunt of most of my rage.
The sad thing is, I know when I'm in my Tamoxifen Rage that
what I’m doing and saying is wrong and hurtful but yet I can’t control
myself. It’s like I’m possessed by the
Tamoxifen.
Well needless to say my Tamoxifen Rage caught up to me this
past weekend. Yes, once again I was
possessed and said things that I’m not proud of.
We (my boyfriend and I) talked and tried to figure out why I
was so unhappy. Everything kept coming
back to the Tamoxifen.
So like everyone else that wants to know something we turned
to the computer and "googled" tamoxifen and mood swings. We found this amazing blog where a woman I
swear was describing me to a tee. She
called it tamox-rage. The inability to
control what comes out of your mouth. My
boyfriend just gave me a look as we both knew that was me.
She also talked about muscle and bone
pain. Funny, I have had achy hips since
late March, early April. Hmmmm, I
started the tamoxifen in February. As
for the muscle pain, there are days it hurts just putting my body lotion
on. Hmmmm!
So I made the decision to stop taking the Tamoxifen for 1
month (with the blessing of my Oncologist) and see if “Happy Jill” returns and
to see if my aches and pains go away as well.
Would love to hear from my B/C Sister’s …have you taken
tamoxifen and if so, did you have Tamoxifen Rage?
