Date: September 29, 2024
Current mood: Elated
Do you ever believe that things happen at certain times for
a reason or certain people come into your life just at the right time. Well that’s kinda what has happened to me
recently.
So those of you closest to me will know that while I fought
my breast cancer there were certain things I just didn’t care about right,
losing my hair for example. I embraced
being bald. Now that doesn’t mean I
enjoyed the constant stares from people who just didn’t know any better. Or didn’t have a complete melt down when all
my hair was at the bottom of the drain in the shower. Another thing I didn’t care about at the time
was completing my reconstruction. I knew
after talking to one of my closest cancer friends Cathy about nipples that I
did not want to have that done. See if
you have that done, then your “headlight” will always be on. No one ever tells you that fun fact so thank
you Cathy for sharing your story and being so open and honest with me. I also chose not to have my areolas tattooed
as well. I think I was just over
everything. I was exhausted both
physically and mentally and just didn’t care at the time. I wasn’t dating anyone and the thought of
dating anyone scared the shit out of me, like who’s gonna want this girl with
no nipples or areolas.
Fast forward to today and then we’ll take a journey down
memory lane.
First today… So this
girl has decided to give in to all her friends that want her to find someone
and be happy, so I decided to go back
online and torture myself with online dating.
Now I have dated previously from match which is where my longest past
relationship came from but also where my douche bag guy came from as well, the
one who did the most psychological damage.
I believe I have already blogged about him, see post titled, Simply DB, LOL!
Memory lane… I have
found that most guys and my longest last relationship tended to shy away from
the breast area. Maybe they thought they
were going to hurt me. Well not
physically but it did emotionally, it just made me feel like I wasn’t wanted or
wasn’t a complete woman. I know before
you say anything … It’s how I felt.
So back to today… So
the first guy I met online was very sweet when I told him about my BC. His exact words were "educate me", tell me all
about your story. He seemed to really
care. And when we decided to become intimate
he is probably the first guy since my BC that has made me feel good about
myself. He never hesitated to touch my breasts
and it was perfect.
I have also met someone from online dating who has become I
feel like a really good friend. I shared
my story with him and I shared how I never finished my reconstruction. We talked about what I had mentioned earlier
about how I was just done at the time.
Well it’s funny cause at my next gynecologist appointment my Dr tells me
that one of the Drs in the office has now been trained to do 3D areola
tattooing and asked if I would be interested.
I was like OMG, I just had this conversation with someone. I took the information and reached out the
Dr.
We will call her Dr B.
I spoke to Dr B and she told me she herself is a BC survivor and she
wanted to be able to give back and she wanted it to be something that would
make patients feel good about themselves and what better way then to see them
complete their journey. I love her!!!!
I went to her website and looked at the pictures of the 3D
tattooing and was simply blown away at how realistic they looked. I cried!
It’s what I want and I believe it’s going to help me feel better about
myself as well. Who knew 17 years later
I would be completing my journey. I have
made my appointment for November 17, the day after my Mammoth March. I wanted to be done with bike training and
hiking training so I could take the time off to heal properly. I have never been so excited about something
in a really long time. I also wanted to
share the text Dr B sent me after I sent her a picture of my breasts which she
had requested so she could prepare for my visit with some ideas.
Hi Jill! Thank you
sending the picture. Your scars healed
beautifully! I can’t wait to tattoo some
beautiful 3D areolas and nipples for you.
It’s going to look amazing!
(heart emoji) - Dr B
I cannot wait Dr B!
