Thursday, December 1, 2011

Powerful Lyrics!

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Current mood: Thankful

So a few weeks ago, I was watching the CMA awards and Martina McBride, whom I absolutely love, sang a song that blew my mind . The words of this song ripped right through me and I instantly began to cry at some of the lyrics.

I have come a long way in accepting my cancercrapness and my body and scars and everything else. Like the fact that I have two fake boobs and it took me forever to feel confident about myself again....hence the lyrics:

she made it through the surgery fine
they said they caught it just in time
but they had to take more than planned

and now it's forced smiles and baggy shirts
to hide what the cancer took from her
and she wants to feel like a woman again

WOW! such powerful words I swear I wrote them...

I remember the night Dr. Lee called after my first surgery and she told me that the cancer had spread and that I needed a mastectomy.... Later I would decide to take the healthy breast as well. Probably the hardest, yet easiest decision I ever had to make. Why would I not? My cancer was so aggressive the chances of a recurrence in my other breast was too high. I wasn't going to wait for the cancer to come back. I was fighting the cancer on my terms!

I just want to say thanks to all those who supported me. My friends and family. You know who you are. The ones who took me out on good days, just to get me out of the house. The ones who came over and played Uno with me and watched my Andy Pettitte pitch on the not so good days. The ones who drove me back and forth to my chemo and Dr's appointments. The ones who just let me vent and cry with them. Thank you all. I love each and everyone of you....