May 20, 2013
current mood: jealous
I was watching Dr. Oz the other day and he did a special on women who have the BRAC 1 gene. Some women chose to take action and some are too scared to have the surgery.
The reason why most of them were afraid to have the surgery was the fear of losing their femininity.
I know first hand about that fear. I still live with it every day.
I was tested for the BRAC 1 gene and even though I thankfully did not have the gene, I too opted for a bi-lateral mastectomy. Taking the healthy breast was the hardest decision I've ever had to make. But at the time it was a no brainer. The cancer was VERY aggressive and in the words of my breast surgeon, it would only be a matter of time before it attacked my healthy breast. I didn't want to go through chemo a second time and the reconstructive surgery I opted for, the DIEP Tram Flap can only be done once so for me the choice was made, take the healthy breast.
The fear of losing your femininity for me was so difficult because I was single at the time and my biggest fear was how the hell am I going to date after this. Who is going to accept me for who am and love me for me and not the fact that I don't have real boobs.
I posted my current mood for this blog as jealous because I am so jealous of the new procedure that is now out there for women facing breast cancer. The new nipple sparing procedure is so beyond amazing in helping to prevent that fear of losing your femininity.
I know for me the breast that was affected by the cancer would not be able to use this procedure because my nipple did test positive for cancer as well as the breast tissue. But this new procedure could have been used when taking my healthy breast.
It's amazing how much has changed in just the short 6 years since my diagnosis.
Thank you to all the amazing surgeons who are making this new procedure possible and helping my sisters feel a little bit better when they are faced to make their difficult decisions.
And thank you Brad for supporting Angelina in her difficult decision as well.
I love Brad Pitt's quote....
"Having witnessed this decision firsthand, I find Angie's choice, as well as many others like her, absolutely heroic," Brad Pitt said in a statement to London's Evening Standard. "I thank our medical team for their care and focus.
"All I want is for her to have a long and healthy life, with myself and our children," the actor continued. "This is a happy day for our family."